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This is the debut album from After the Mourning.

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released March 1, 2013

drums performed by Ash Biggs
Ash Biggs appears courtesy of Black Bell

cover artwork by Fuzzy Tattoo

Recorded at Sprout City Studios,
Eugene, Oregon,
by Jesse Myers and Damian DeLong
Mixed by Jesse Myers

Mastered by Ryan Foster at Foster Mastering in Portland, Oregon

all words by jesse myers
engage 2007
mourning coffee 2010
nothing remains 2009
stand 2007/2009
void 1997/2007
the sick and the dying 2011
empirical 2009
bloodsugar 2002
based on the movie "brain candy" by the kids in the hall (1996)
starring david foley, bruce mcculloch, kevin mcdonald, mark mckinney, and scott thompson
written by norm hiscock, bruce mcculloch, kevin mcdonald, mark mckinney, and scott thompson
and the songs "happiness pie" and "some days are dark" by death lurks (bruce mcculloch & odds)
reid diamond, craig northey, steven drake, and bruce mcculloch
volunteer 2007
the nail compiled of stanzas salvaged from songs written 1996 to 2009

all music written by jesse myers except engage, much of which was derived from a jam session in 1997 with Brainstorm (jesse myers, tony odel and david o’harra)

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After the Mourning Eugene, Oregon

After the Mourning was formed in 2005, and has since undergone a number of changes to the lineup. Our influences are broad, from Beethoven to Blindside, Gershwin to Green Day, Primus to Pantera. We would rather you decide for yourself what our sound is, or what genre you would like to place us in.
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Track Name: Engage
Engage Jesse Myers 2007

chorus
The warrior closes with his enemy
Engages in battle for victory
His character is how he’s defined
Self-preservation expelled from his mind
He won’t retreat he will never hide
Won’t hesitate there’s nothing to decide.
There’s no request he will ever deny.
Prepared to fight he’s prepared to die.

verse one
You’ve got my back but you don’t show
You want to stop it watch it go
You’re positive but you don’t know
You wish it were it isn’t so
You’re swimming upstream with the flow
You’re standing up and laying low
You’re on the galley but you won’t row
You disagree but won’t say no

chorus
The warrior closes with his enemy
Engaged in battle he claims victory
His character is how he’s defined
Self-preservation expelled from his mind
He’ll never run he will never hide
Won’t hesitate there’s nothing to decide.
There’s no request he will ever deny.
Prepared to fight he’s prepared to die

verse two
Stand up or sit down continue or quit
Can’t make a deal I’m done dealing with it
Grapple or tap out fight or submit
If you throw a punch know you’re gonna get hit
Dominate devastate your opponent
Survive overcome pull yourself from the pit
Leave where you came from go where you’re sent
All that you give equals all that you get

chorus
The warrior closes with his enemy
Engages in battle for victory
His character is how he’s defined
Self-preservation expelled from his mind
He’ll never run he will never hide
Won’t hesitate there’s nothing to decide.
There’s no request he will ever deny.
Prepared to fight he’s prepared to die.

verse three
You say that it matters you claim that you care
But to see you rise up is a sight that is rare
Faced with a challenge for truth or a dare
Confronted with martyrdom life isn’t fair
More than your piercings your beard or your hair
More than tattoos or the clothes that you wear
This is a trap you are caught in a snare
This is your burden a load you can’t bear

chorus
The warrior closes with his enemy
Engaged in battle he claims victory
His character is how he’s defined
Self-preservation expelled from his mind
He won’t retreat he will never hide
Won’t hesitate there’s nothing to decide.
No sacrifice he will ever deny
You haven’t lived until you’re prepared to die
Track Name: Mourning Coffee
mourning coffee
jesse myers 2010

Verse One:
Get out of bed and put on a uniform;
drink a dozen cups of coffee
work in the rain until the sun comes up;
head to the university
sit in a desk for an hour try to look awake;
try to keep my notes on the lines
another shot of espresso 'cause I'm fading fast;
trying not to lose my mind

Chorus One:
Work coffee sleep coffee bus ride class
Sleep coffee work sleep coffee class sleep
Class sleep coffee work coffee coffee coffee
Coffee sleep coffee work sleep now it’s Tuesday

Work coffee sleep coffee church sleep class
Sleep coffee work feed the fish class sleep
Class walk the dog work coffee practice coffee
Coffee sleep coffee work sleep is it Thursday?

Verse Two:
Put on another layer of deodorant;
splash some water on my face
go back to class and work on my degree;
so I can work at a better place
then go back to work so I can pay my bills;
and have enough left over to eat
take off my uniform and untie my boots;
take a minute to rest my feet

Chorus Two:
Work coffee sleep coffee drill weekend
Sleep coffee work sleep date night sleep
Start a diet class practice coffee coffee coffee
Coffee sleep homework run water hope it’s Wednesday

Work coffee sleep coffee water all the pets
Practice coffee work sleep coffee take a shower
Class coffee work coffee kiss my wife and sleep
Coffee work sleep practice work until it’s Friday

Verse Three:
Read another chapter while I'm half asleep;
try to write another page
finally in bed but now I can't sleep;
overcome with rage
get an hour of sleep before the neighbors
stomp up the stairs and slam the door
get back out of bed put on a uniform;
and head back out for some more

Final Chorus
Work Coffee Sleep Coffee Class Coffee Work
Coffee Class Water Hit the Gym Go Home
Sleep Work Coffee Coffee Coffee Lunch Coffee
Take a Nap Shower Shave Time to Start my Monday

Work Coffee Sleep Coffee Class Gym Lab
Sleep Homework Practice Coffee Work Coffee Sleep
Shower Gym Shower Practice Take My Wife A Coffee
Coffee Walk the Dog Work Sleep Until it’s Sunday

Work Coffee Sleep Coffee Work Work Nap
Class Coffee Lab Gym Shower Catch the Bus
Read a Paper Write a Paper Coffee Coffee Coffee
Work Coffee Coffee Work Saturday approaching

Work Coffee Sleep Coffee Sleep Coffee Work
Work Gym Practice Shower Coffee Coffee Coffee
Class Coffee Class Lab Gym Shower Bus
Coffee Work Coffee Coffee Work Until the Weekend
Track Name: Nothing Remains
nothing remains
Jesse Myers 2009


Chorus
What if what if the past was different
What if that loss had been a win
What if I’d never been beaten
What if I wasn’t so broken
What if what if the past had never been
What if I’d never let doubt in
What if and How, Who, Where, Why and When
What if the questions never end

Verse One
What if can solve nothing; nothing can be changed
Nothing can be altered; nothing is ever gained
There’s no one to fight; there is no one to blame
What if cannot save you; can’t protect you from your pain

Chorus
What if what if the past was different
What if that loss had been a win
What if I’d never been beaten
What if I wasn’t so broken
What if what if the past had never been
What if I’d never let doubt in
What if and How, Who, Where, Why and When
What if the questions never end

Verse Two
What if still distracts me; from what is and will be
What if can slow me down; and stop me and kill me
What if maybe if I’d only won’t fulfill me
What if and daydreaming; never lead to tranquility

Bridge
What if I’d tried to be a better man
What if I’d done all I know that I can
What if can’t take you back; now is your moment
Mistakes have been made and now you must learn from it
We’ll never get where we’re going until
We stop wishing that all our what ifs were real
Now you move forward; through future endeavors
It’s time to recover; it’s time to get better

Verse Three
What if can deepen and; broaden my despair
What if will tell me that; my life isn’t fair
What if still prevents me; from seeking repair
What if holds me captive; inside my nightmare

Chorus
What if what if the past was different
What if that loss had been a win
What if I’d never been beaten
What if I wasn’t so broken
What if what if the past had never been
What if I’d never let doubt in
What if and How, Who, Where, Why and When
What if the questions never end

Chorus
What if what if the past was different
What if that loss had been a win
What if I’d never been beaten
What if I wasn’t so broken
What if what if the past had never been
What if I’d never let doubt in
What if and How, Who, Where, Why and When
What if the questions never end
Track Name: Mourning Stretches
Instrumental
Track Name: Stand (Tall)
Stand
Jesse Myers 2008

hearts and souls bought and traded
consequences underrated
enemy is dedicated
evil is celebrated

stand on the corner with your sign
stand for the blind leading the blind
stand for your party toe the line
stand for the darkness let it shine
stand for causes left behind
whatever causes that you can find
for any cause of any kind
as long as your cause isn’t mine

evidence has been fabricated
media sources are infiltrated
entertainment educated
art and science liberated

on the corner with your sign
stand for the blind who are leading the blind
stand for your party toe the line
stand for the darkness let it shine
stand for causes left behind
stand for whatever cause you can find
any cause of any kind
as long as your cause is not mine
Stand 3/4 page two

sons and daughters indoctrinated
depression and anxiety medicated
faith and politics separated
this brave new world devastated

stand on the corner with your sign
stand for the blind who are leading the blind
stand for your party toe the line
stand for the darkness let it shine
stand for causes left behind
whatever causes that you can find
any cause of any kind
as long as your cause isn’t mine

stand on the corner with your sign
stand for the blind leading the blind
stand for your party toe the line
stand for the darkness let it shine
stand for causes left be hind
stand for whatever cause you can find
for any cause of any kind
as long as your cause is not mine
Track Name: Void
void
jesse myers 1997/2007

volume one: the scholar

his quest he’s searching for more proof
he’s heard all the theories he needs the truth
comparing philosophies they all seem flawed
where is the evidence where is God
he will not surrender he will not retreat
in his quest for knowledge won’t accept defeat
the hole in his heart expands and it grows
because he denies what he already knows

chorus one

we’ve all got voids that we must fill
an ache in our core we try to kill
we’ve tried it before and we try it still
it never worked and it never will

the warmth in our lives continues to drain
emptiness flowing through our veins
the unknowns and variables remain
and the only thing we can rely on is our pain

volume two: the lover

the child needs love it’s all she can feel
she’s seeking a someone whose love is for real
she looks everywhere she leaves no stone unturned
no river left uncrossed, no bridge left unburned
she finds someone desperate, dependent for sure
imprisoned by needs he will bite at the lure
one day he’ll leave her, get bored and move on
such true love was fleeting, the lover is gone
void page two

chorus two

the warmth in our lives continues to drain
emptiness flowing through our veins
the unknowns dominant in our brains
and the only known constant is our pain

we all have a void within our soul
a God-sized vacuum a gaping hole
on the surface, beautiful so we’re told
but we’re hungry angry, tired alone and cold

volume three: the user

the boy’s growing up and will soon be a man
his life is lacking something he can’t understand
he won’t fill this void though he constantly tries
the poison replaces the lows with the highs
the chemicals dampen the ache and the sorrow
he’ll drown out tonight and then hide from tomorrow
as long as his pleasure can be a distraction
he won’t have to take any corrective action

chorus three

we all have a void within our soul
a God-sized vacuum a gaping hole
on the surface, beautiful so we’re told
but inside we’re ugly, naked and cold

we’ve all got voids that we must fill
an ache in our core we try to kill
we’ve tried it before and we try it still
it never worked… and it never will
Track Name: What Is and Will Be
Instrumental
Track Name: The Sick and The Dying
the sick and the dying
jesse myers 2011

worthless work
worthless school
taught by jerks
surrounded by fools
worthless city
worthless career
i ponder quitting
but stay out of fear

worthless worry
worthless wants
worthless fury
worthless taunts
worthless knowledge
worthless beliefs
lose it all it’s
taken by thiefs

worthless drive
worthless pursuit
worthless life
that bears no fruit
worthless hunger
worthless thirst
how much longer
will i be cursed

worthless day
worthless week
thrown away
by a worthless freak
worthless and tired
in a worthless town
worthless desire
to turn it around
Track Name: Empirical
Empirical
Jesse Myers 2008

Verse One:
the way that a protein is folded
can cause us to live or can cause us to die
our knowledge expands ad infinitum
empirical data cannot be denied
A rolling ball continues rolling
An object in motion is never at rest
And when forces stop it it stays stopped
So obvious that I would never have guessed

Chorus:
Often Mistaken Never in Doubt
You have got Everything Figured Out
Data or Dogma Faith versus Fact
Religion and Science can not Interact

Verse Two:
the first law of thermodynamics
work becomes heat energy is conserved
potential is spent through kinetic
the second law proves we get what we deserved
Energy can’t be created
And nothing created is nothing destroyed
Order degrades into chaos
Disorder and entropy we can’t avoid

Bridge One:
the lack of a proof isn’t proof of a lack
you can’t take this from me I’m taking it back
the need for convincing has been minimized
failure to be satisfied criticized

Chorus:
Often Mistaken Never in Doubt
You have got Everything Figured Out
Data or Dogma Faith versus Fact
Religion and Science can not Interact

Verse Three:
evidence points toward nothing
and that proves that nothing will ever be true
so now you fall back on your dogma
and sadly your dogma revolves around you
explanations must be simple
the simplest conclusion must always be drawn
the rules always have their exceptions
if nothing is proven then nothing is wrong

Bridge Two:
the theory you love is the one you support
that won’t be enough for me I demand more
the value of evidence won’t be reduced
won’t settle for less I will not be seduced

Chorus:
Often Mistaken Never in Doubt
You have got Everything Figured Out
Data or Dogma Faith versus Fact
Religion and Science can not Interact


GLOSSARY

the first law of thermodynamics
CONSERVATION OF ENERGY: in any process, energy cannot be created or destroyed, it can only change forms.

The second law of thermodynamics
CHAOS, ENTROPY, DEGRADATION OF ENERGY: energy systems have a tendency to increase their entropy, moving from order to disorder, and cannot return to a previous state(work can become heat, but heat cannot become work).

Inertia – object at motion will stay in motion, an object at rest will stay at rest
Track Name: BloodSugar
BLOODSUGAR
JESSE MYERS 2002

VERSE ONE
SOME DAYS ARE DARK
SOME DAYS ARE GREY
SOME DAYS YOU WISH
IT WOULD ALL GO AWAY
BUT ON THOSE DAYS
WHEN YOU’RE ASKING WHY
JUST HAVE YOU A SLICE
OF HAPPINESS PIE

CHORUS
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
HOPE OVERCOMES DESPAIR
BUTTERFLIES AND DAISIES
HAPPINESS TO SPARE
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
DEPRESSING NEVER MORE
FLOWERS BUBBLES CUPCAKES
HAPPY TO THE CORE

VERSE TWO
SOME NIGHTS YOU GO OUT
SOME NIGHTS YOU STAY HOME
SOME NIGHTS WITH YOUR FRIENDS
AND SOME NIGHTS ALONE
BUT WITH OR WITHOUT
AND HAPPY OR SAD
NEVER YOU DOUBT
IT’S NEVER THAT BAD

CHORUS
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
HOPE OVERCOMES DESPAIR
POPCORN IN PAJAMAS
HAPPINESS TO SPARE
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
DEPRESSING NEVER MORE
BUNNIES PUPPIES BABIES
HAPPY TO THE CORE

BRIDGE
PEOPLE MAY SAY
YOU’RE ONE OF THOSE TYPES
THEY MAY ACCUSE YOU OF SAYING THINGS
YOU WOULD NEVER SAY
PEOPLE MAY SAY
YOU ARE IN DENIAL
A HELPING OF HAPPINESS PIE’S WHAT YOU NEED
ON THAT KIND OF DAY

CHORUS
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
HOPE OVERCOMES DESPAIR
LOLLIPOPS AND GRAVY
HAPPINESS TO SPARE
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
DEPRESSING NEVER MORE
UNICORNS AND RAINBOWS
HAPPY TO THE CORE

CHORUS
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
HOPE OVERCOMES DESPAIR
CINNAMON AND SUGAR
HAPPINESS TO SPARE
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
DEPRESSING NEVER MORE
FLOWERS BUBBLES CUPCAKES
HAPPY TO THE CORE

OUTRO
BUTTERFLIES AND DAISIES
POPCORN IN PAJAMAS
LOLLIPOPS AND GRAVY
CARTOONS COOKIES CANDY
PUNKIN PIES AND COFFEE
UNICORNS AND RAINBOWS
BUNNIES PUPPIES BABIES
HAPPY TO THE CORE
Track Name: Volunteer (Electric)
volunteer
jesse myers 2007

verse one
the time has arrived for me to go
away from the world i've come to know
and when i come back i will come back to you
you're in all that i am and in all that i do
and so as i go to a far away place
let me remember the smile on your face
may the last thing i see be your beautiful smile
the last beautiful thing i will see for a while

verse two
remember always that destiny waits
cling to the hope that this future creates
we'll live happily ever after in bliss
on the other side of this wilderness
and when i am gone remember me
know this is the way that it has to be
remember that there is always tomorrow
and seek out the joy hidden within the sorrow

chorus
this is the call to which i volunteered
but soon it is over so wait for me here
you'll always be safe nothing can hurt you
you're never alone i'll never desert you
so wait for me here while i'm away
i'll be with you soon don't be afraid
this is my home and you are my girl
this i'll defend to the end of the world

verse three
you'll always be smart you'll always be strong
you'll always be beautiful i'm never wrong
you'll always be perfect you'll always be pure
you'll always succeed and you'll always endure
every inch of you glitters every part of you's gold
you're everything i need as i'm growing old
and as i leave here for lands far away
know i will miss you i wish i could stay

chorus
this is the call to which i volunteered
but soon it is over so wait for me here
you'll always be safe nothing can hurt you
you're never alone i'll never desert you
so wait for me here while i'm away
i'll be with you soon don't be afraid
this is my home and you are my girl
this i'll defend to the end of the world
Track Name: The Nail
the nail
jesse myers 1996-2009

VERSES
BETTER OR WORSE IS SUBJECTIVE AT BEST
I CAN BARELY SQUEAK BY IN THIS LIFE IN THIS TEST
AFTER ONE DAY OF TRIUMPH DEFEAT MANIFESTS
I GET LOST AS I WANDER THROUGH MY WILDERNESS

SOME THOUGHTS HAVE BEEN ACCURATE SOME HAVE BEEN LIES
I’M SEARCHING WITHIN MYSELF LOOKING FOR SPIES
A MUTINY WITHIN ME HAS BROUGHT MY DEMISE
THE ENEMY IS ME I NOW REALIZE

I WANT TO DEVELOP AND GROW AND MATURE
I WAKE UP EACH MORNING AND BITE THE SAME LURE
I CHALLENGE MY DOUBTS JUST TO PROVE THAT I’M SURE
I CONTINUE TO LOOK TO MYSELF FOR THE CURE

BRIDGE
I AM THE NAIL

NOT A BLESSING
NOT A CURSE
NOTHING BETTER
NOTHING WORSE

CHORUS
WHO I’VE BEEN AND WHO I’LL BE
WHAT I’VE DONE WHAT’S NEXT FOR ME
I’M FLOODED WITH ANXIETY
CAN I ACQUIRE SERENITY
NOT MY WILL BE DONE BUT THINE
BECAUSE YOUR WISDOM CONQUERS MINE
I’M WRETCHED PITIFUL NAKED AND BLIND
WHY CAN’T I FOLLOW YOUR DESIGN
Track Name: The Questions Never End
Instrumental